Anna’s Story Part 66
So much to do. So much wasted time. I can’t believe I have been in this shelter so long and have done so little. It’s like I am finally waking up. I hardly know where to begin. We have this great volunteer, we call her Miss S., she has been helping me with my goals. I have goals now! She wants me to look at all the big area of my life like parenting, finances and education. But she also wants me to set goals for stuff just for me-stuff like exercise and creativity! I guess I need to admit there are a few things I didn’t do when I should have. There are some things the shelter wanted me to do that I haven’t done. OK I admit I kept making up excuses like “I lost the paper” and “They never returned my call” and other stupid stuff that seems pretty lame now. Why didn’t I just do it? I remember I cheated on the weekly time sheets and said I spent time doing stuff I knew I didn’t do. Stuff like taking my kids outside and cleaning around the edges of the floor not just the middle. I almost have to laugh. I thought I could pushing stuff under the sofa about 10 minutes before inspection and no one would notice. I’ll bet they knew!
Miss S. says to start with the things my kids need first. That means I need to make an appointment and the Spring Hill Clinic and actually keep it. I really, really hate admitting this, but my kids are not up to date on their immunizations and that means I can’t get cash assistance. I hope it doesn’t mean I am a bad mother, but I sort of think it does. After I make the appointment, I have to call the medical transport people and arrange a ride since I don’t have a car. A long time ago the shelter made me sign up for medical transportation in Hernando County. I was mad about that at the time. Now I am super glad I did. I guess I should thank them, but I am not so sure I am ready to do that. I mean how do I go to someone and say, “Sorry I was such a jerk, please forgive me”? Some of the volunteers are not as nice as Miss. S. I really like her. Maybe I will tell her some of this stuff. Maybe I will apologize to her.