Anna’s Story Part 64
I hope I never lose this feeling. I am a child of God. I love going to church. I wish I could go every day. Noah loves it too. He is actually learning about Jesus in his class. He sang “Jesus loves Me” last night on the way home. What a darling boy. How could I ever have thought he was a burden? To be honest I actually thought my own son was a stinky little curse. Well, I hate admitting that, but these are my own private thought so I guess I better be honest. Noah was a mistake. He came along too early. I was not ready to be a mother. I mean I was old enough, I was just not interested in taking care of a baby all day every day. Then the second baby came along and their daddy left and I was suddenly a single mom with no money and no one to help me. Life was just too hard and it seemed like the babies were making it harder. Some nights I actually wished someone else would raise them. I would not have cared if DCF took them away. I was that tired of it all. I wanted my own life back. I wanted out of motherhood. I guess I was a pretty bad mother at that point. I’m being honest here. Now I see it all differently. How could I have been so stupid? Never again. Never agin will I see my children the same way. Never again will I resent them being in my life. I will love them forever.